A Like Mind...

So I have been very productive this morning. I have cleaned the house, played with my bird and wrote one of the three papers I have due the end of the week. I was going through my email and my "distant" cousin Tammy posted a Native Feast email for the group. I was excited to see it cause I believe it or not am a philosophical mind. It's how I think most the time and these things always give you more to think about. This one in particular got me to thinking about the future and what has happened so far. I feel so blessed in the fact that I got pregnant, carried and nourished and brought into this world a son. He amazes me every single day and so most of my future plans revolve around him and showing him everything life has to offer. Even though there is an ass lot of snow on the ground I can't wait to Spring when he and I get can outside, get my mini garden planted and enjoy the smells and warmth that comes with spring. So here is the email for the rest of you to think about...March 3 - Daily FeastSome mysteries have never been explained;how a firefly lights up its tail, how a bumblebee flies, and how ahummingbird can hover and dart. Even deeper mysteries surround uspersonally. How did we get to this place to do this thing? We knowlittle more about ourselves than we do about the firefly and bumblebee.To think and ponder and question is a part of our nature - but if wewere to put to work what we already know we would be financial geniusesand spiritual giants. No mystery stands out here, but think what wecould do were we to work like the ant - and with no overseer.~ He did not depend altogether on his eyes for information. ~SAID ABOUT PONTIAC - OTTAWA, 1700's"A Cherokee Feast of Days, Volume II" by Joyce Sequichie HiflerTHINK on THESE THINGSBy Joyce SequichieHiflerThesetting of the sun on an old year is a kind of summing up time. Whathave you accomplished? What were your goals? Will they be higher in thenew year?Whatever your personal plans and whatever the reasonsback of them, there are common everyday kinds of people that should bekept in view. They have positive outlooks, and are best recognized whensincerely listening to a child's words.You will see them whenthey steady the elderly, you will know them by their kindness'. Youwill not often hear their prayers as they are for their God. But youwill know they are to be depended upon and that they will not tire ofthese things, for it is their natural role.Think about thesepeople when you set your plans. They are good to remember. Your successor failure depends upon these people being you.Ps. I posted a new video of Luca learned how to rock in his chair on my profile.

Nuts or instinct?

So yesterday we were sitting at Gabe's game. For whatever reason we picked the worst spot on the bleachers for flying balls. When we got there it was early and the older better teams were playing. A flying soccor ball game out of the area and came hurling towards my son. Well it went over his head (which I didnt see at the time) and into the stroller. Needless to say its a nerf ball and it hit Luca in the legs. He didn't cry or anything in fact he was like "Whoa there a ball on me lets play" however I wasn't havin it. The second I saw where it had landed I stood up and yelled "Hey... HEY!!!!!" Now folks normally in most circumstances I will say something sarcastic or hurtful if I am intent on defending myself. Its my way. Words hurt worse then something physical and I use them well but when it comes to my kid- pee wee soccor team or no someone is gonna get an ass whoopin! I found myself looking for the most guilty kid as every single one of them heard my one vocal cord working self! I WAS LIVID! Toni was trying to calm me down and her sister Amanda was sayin they didn't mean to do it. All I saw was RED. Needless to say Toni's dad was scared I was gonna kick the crap outta some kid. I did eventually sit down but it took some time and a lot of coaxing. When I say I am fiercly protective over my son that should not be taken likely folks... Had he been crying I would have crossed into the arena area. He is to young to defend hisself and that makes it worse though I am sure I wont change much when he is a teenager. Anyhow... thats it for now. Have a good Sunday.

This weeks update...

So lots of things have happened this week. Most of them were good and others suck! Since most prefer bad before good, reading my fathers status yesterday I learned that my Grandfather's lung cancer had returned. I feel like shit! Truly a disease like this couldn't happen to a nicer person and it doesn't seem fair. I haven't been the ideal Grandchild for a long time. I could say that I make more of an effort now because my Grandmother pulled her head out of her ass where my sexual preference was concerned but that would just be an excuse. When I talked to him on the phone yesterday he made light of everything as he always does when I told him how I found out and said something like "to an old fashion fella like me software is the same as underwear" LOL He asked about Luca and how things were going and I asked him how Mammaw was holding up as I dont know what she will do without him. I dont think she has ever been without a man in her life and while she is a tough bird she depended a lot on him to just exist and be. They compliment eachother so well. I worked in hospice for a while and have dealt with death almost everyday in that situation but its always different when its your own family. I have seen what lung cancer looks like in the end and the only thing that gives me piece of mind is knowing it isnt as bad as something the others. *sigh* I am hoping his oncologist can pull another miracle out his hat. As for the good news all is done with my testing and such for work. I start orientation on the 9th. Luca and I will be stopping in to see the woman who delivered him on Friday when I go in to get a PPD read and sign one last form. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------Luca Upate: He is belly sleeping now with his cute little behind in the air! LOL He has cut one top tooth and the other is working its way through. He is doing this cute little thing now when I come in the door after being out a while where he will whine for me to get him when I say hello to him. He is still very much into Yo Gabba Gabba but has watched other shows as well (mostly in the morning when he is open to change LOL) Were working on sitting up. Its harder for him since he is so big. Its difficult for him to keep things where there supposed to be. He sits great though I just dont trust that he wont topple over. We take time each day to work on his milestones. He is still very fascinated with his toes which makes the sitting up milestone a little hard to accomplish LOL. Ps. The other day I had a conversation with a nice lady in the walmart baby isle. I had to ask how old her child was. This little boy was a little longer then luca (not by much) and weighed a little more. In fact he was 9 months old and weighed in at 30 lbs. So suddenly I am not worried about his size anymore. When I got a look at her husband (who looked like linebacker LOL) I was relieved. Have a great weeks folks...

The little things in Life...

Bear with me as I upate this blog to my blog on myspace. :-)

Ok last night I had wild dreams. The first involved getting this little "Downs" guy read for a holiday concert in the middle of a hurricane and somehow ending up in a isle way of a barn on a double bed while some half women half beasts tried to get in. Luca woke me up from that dream as he is cutting his 2nd top tooth. I go back to sleep only to have another crazy dream involving the same concert and assigned seating and a shit load of drama. Again Luca woke me up from that dream as well. The last dream was normal for me and again Luca woke me up. :-) Today I decided to replenish my lost sleep and gave him a little motrin and headed upstairs for a little nap in our bed. I snuggled him in beside me and mid way through I opened my eyes to see him tugging on my wifebeater trying to get closer. I smiled at him and brought him in closer. We went back to sleep for another hour and I feel so MUCH better. Waking up beside your baby is one of lifes simple pleasures and ultimate joys. I preceded to thank him for waking me up last night and for taking the nap with me.