11/29/2007
So Toni and I had some heart wrenching news. Apparently I surged for real and clearly 2 days after the insemination and peaked and ovulated 4 days after. I seriously doubt our donors sperm could live in my body that long since he is older. There is maybe a 1% chance I am pregnant but I doubt it. We still won't know until the 6 and will retest again the 8th. Toni and I were both pretty tore up about it. The Clomid is very VERY hard on the body. I was very achy, moody and emotional the entire time I was on it and have decided not to do another month. It kinda like taking you out of your body and replacing you with a real BITCH! While all of us know a few of those some of live in fear of turning into them. *Sigh* I didn't like it. Toni will be the one to carry. We are gonna wait about 6 month if I am not then we will try with her. Her cycle is excellent its runs as it should when it should and she won't need to take anything. Nature will take over. I am really sad about this but there isn't much I can do. Hope you all have a great night... we are baking Christmas cookies tonight. Pics to be posted in albums.
12/6/2007
Everyone will know the results of the first test. Its says you can take it 5 days before you missed period so it’s ok to take it tonight. At or around 5 most of you will have you first but not final answer. The second test is the first is negative will be taking on Monday the day after my period is late if that happens. Again this is a 1 in 1 million shot. I am headed to hibernate in the bed... Negative folks. Will retest if no period on Monday. But there is almost no chance something even a faint line would have shown today. 12/8/2007
Ok so I had crazy ass dreams last night. Even though I am not pregnant in real life the first dream I dreamt I had quads and was trying to save them. It was 3 girls and a boy. The identical girls each had a brown and blue eye. The identical girl had blue eyes and the little boy had the reddest hair I have ever seen. At one point I knew a large truck was gonna hit the rear of the car and I threw myself between the hatchback and the quads and ended up in a coma. When I woke up they were 4. VERY weird. I had to wake up from that dream I had the second which is where I ended up at a lesbian festival slash best buy and was deaf almost the entire time I was there. The only thing I was able to hear with the flash of something was "If all you have to offer me is air, Then breath Rae into me..." it was a little freaky. Before goin to bed I had read the Coyote or Shadow Self meditation to prepare myself before sleep. This is one where you never know what your gonna get... Wow. The possibility of quads is next to none with Toni the one getting pregnant however... I think this dream was trying to tell me that I will end up being an awesome Mother. The fact that I will protect beyond the means of my own existence says something... As for the other one well silence is supposed to teach me something...God knows the Clomid (we think were not sure what is causing it) made my voice shit. I was back to where I was after my surgery sounding almost completely hoarse and its just now going back to where I had it. Have a great weekend folks. I am gonna tackle this damned paper and sit have some pizza with my girl...
12/13/2007
Hi ya folks! So As you all know I found out I was pregnant. It truly is a miracle because the chances were PRETTY slim but as Toni sister put it I guess I got to be that 1. :-) I have been for 2 blood draws with one to go. All for my HCG and Progesterone. My HCG went from 28 to 75 so I nearly tripled the baby making process and am starting to feel the affects of that extra hormone. Rachel Pepper in "The Ultimate Lesbian Guide to Pregnancy" says as women we make baby’s from scratch and that makes us tired as shit. I am finding that out. She said its the equlivalent of scaling a mountain in a day which is a lot of work. My progesterone which is why I took the clomid to begin with is fluctuating but they say thats normal. I am taking progesterone supplements prescribed by my Fertility Doc to give the baby that extra "Umphhhh" to get through everything and add progesterone to my uterus. I have found that I cannot stand the site of cheese or yogurt. The thought makes me want to puke though I don’t mind ice cream or milk. I know weird... No constant cravings yet. More to post following the end of next week. Today starts week 5. :-)
12/17/2007
So I just thought I would post that this baby is a go getter a lot like its Mama. :-) He or she has tripled the HCG results yet again. I went from 28 to 75 to 223. Yeah! And the Progesterone is back up in better places. It went from 14.67 to 10 to 16.26 Yeah! LOL I still have to do the suppositories which are a pain in the ass but you do it. :-) The cravings have started. I have been eating a lot of turkey bacon and craving shellfish and pineapple. LOL And this Thursday assuming I can get them scanned I will post pics of the little one in the 6 week ultrasound. Toni is videotaping the monitor as well. So that’s all the news that is news folks... Post more later this week. Tina n Child.
12/20/2007
So folks I did it. The first vaginal ultrasound of what was supposed to be my 6th week. But since I didn't ovulate until the 28th Doc Hinton said it was only my 5th week. So I am 5 weeks 1 day preggo. There was 1 sac THANK GOD lol and no heartbeat since it doesn't start to beat until next week. The baby isn't big enough to see yet but the sac was clearly visible. We have an ultrasound pic of the that I will post tomorrow. I was disappointed not to be so far along. I really wanted to see a little heartbeat in the sac but no such luck. However the baby is where he or she is supposed to be. Now its just a matter of waiting another week to get out of the woods and declare the viable pregnancy. I am an impatient Aries so this makes it difficult. The nausea hit last night and started again today which Doc Hinton says is a good sign lol. I was thinking what about the atomic titties and the mood swings... this crazy Doc wants me to have morning sickness. *sigh* So here it comes... Tonight I am gonna sit my ass in bed and eat a pint of ice cream after I get some sleep. I am EXHAUSTED!
12/27/2007
There isn't much to say except there was a heartbeat and a baby that doubled his/her size. :-) It is such a miracle seeing the heartbeat flicker on the screen. So amazing and so tear provoking! WOW! I will post pics tomorrow. Tonight is about a movie some snuggling and rest... its been a long day full of happiness. Tina Ps. the nausea has started and my Doc is excited about it. LOL Crackers and ginger ale will become my new best friends I think.
1/1/2008
So as I mentioned before the nausea is on like a rampaging bull. It starts in the evening and lasts until about 11. Doesn't matter what I eat it still there. It comes for a little while in the afternoon but not so much I feel like I have to throw up. My dreams have become incredibly vivid and baby is growing like crazy! So far so good. I have 2 days of work this week then I am off for a weeks vacation to the Caribbean. :-) That will be able to help me relax into my 8th week but Toni and I will not be online throughout that time. This is a relaxing vacation and I need it. Pregnancy is a lot of work on the body and I am constantly tired. :-) I couldn't have picked a better time to get pregnant though cause it going by quickly and the holidays and the fact that my bday and books will come out in the spring and our 3 months off of school should help with everything as well. Our first official OB appointment is Thursday and if there is anything to post I will before we go. Happy New Year to you all and may it give you all the blessing it has given us. Tina
1/14/2008
Well being on a cruise and being pregnant is not an easy task. I did get to enjoy something’s like 1 coke a day and snorkeling as well as the walking tour we went on in San Juan. I usually don't find history interesting but this was history mixed with religion which was. It took me a while to feel up to par. Last week I had to flu that knocked me on my ass. Once that was gone I could deal with the morning sickness. LOL Being pregnant is tiring and its not doing shit for my appetite. While most people dined gourmet on the ship I ate baked potatoes, fruit and icecream. The thought of putting anything with Fois Gras or baby cow in my mouth literally made me want to throw up. Every port just about Toni and I had real food. In Puerto Rico I had chicken salad and in St. Thomas I had chicken salad as well. (my aversion to chicken is gone though I can't stand cream cheese or yogurt) potatoes are my friend since there bland and yesterday I was craving ham and cheese sandwiches on bagel with ketchup and chips on it (that’s not a pregnancy craving that’s just something I like to eat my Grandmother got me hooked LOL). I also had REALLY good wings at Senor Frogs in the Bahamas’. Not sure what the little bean thought of that but it tasted good going down. LOL I am regaining some of my energy though I can sleep 12 hours straight with no problem. Things are good the baby is well and we will get to hear the heartbeat on the 31st at my next appointment. Ciao folks! Enjoy your week.
1/20/2008
You know I woke up this afternoon with the song "heroes and friends" in my head. My Grandmother must have been in one of my numerous dreams. The chorus to that song sounded like some the advice she would have given me when she were here. I started thinking about pregnant belly and how blessed I truly am. If there was ever a woman in this world who took pride in being a Mother or could have shown me how precious such a gift was it would be her. She showed me what unconditional love for someone else meant and how much joy there could be in being someone's mother. I think a lot of people take that for granted. I understand now why bear came to me. It was to prepare me for this gift after all do you know a fiercer mother or one who will go above and beyond the call of duty to care for there cub? There is a law in the Alaskan wilderness that says "Never come between a Grizzly bear and her cub!" My doctor called the other day and said there was an issue with my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone). What's new right? I live with a reminder of my cancer every time I look in the mirror and I swear going to the Doc's is like going to the DMV its never good news. So I wasn't able to reach her back so I will have to try on Monday. I will keep you updated. Most likely she will tell me it's to low. Well it's always had to be low to keep the cancer away. Being pregnant and until I am 10 to 12 weeks the baby depends on those numbers. I had my thyroid decreased for this reason but I guess it wasn't enough of a decrease. I don't have to fear miscarriage from I just need to be careful. There isn't much out there on Pregnancy after Thyroid Cancer. Anyway… That's all to report. I just needed to write so I did.
1/22/2008
So she called me Monday morning. I didn't even need to call her. My TSH is low and she wants me to talk to my Endo Dr. Mersey about that. Well for once I would like to keep Doc Mersey outta of some portion of my life but it doesn't look like that will happen. I will call him today and see what he says. The T3 is what they baby depends on and mine is fine. So we will see what he says... *sigh* I am headed back to bed shortly... *yawn* Have a great week folks. Tina
1/26/2008
So things are going well. Work is good. I like the people I work with. We make a great team. It’s important to have that in any profession. My dreams have become super vivd lately. I have had one last week about being in a small mote flipping turtle right side up. The dream I had last night was incredibly odd. I ended up threatening a man who was stealing from people in plane site and when we went to punch my stomach I snapped his neck. (Toni said it was morbid I say no one messes with this baby!) -----> Does not fuck around! Period. Anyhow... technicolor dreams are my reality right now. I gotta say I kinda like it. Though everyone knows my dreams can get a little fucked up. :-) Hence the new background for this blog. I thought she deserved a place somewhere on here and when I saw this picture it literally took my breath away... The weekend is gonna be nice. Toni and I are going to see the "Bucket List" tonight. I have been wanting to see it and people I know who have said it was a great movie. I had some schezuan string beans and now I am ready for bed. Who knows what will happen this time around... Nite peeps. Tina
1/30/2008
Nothing to report. I ended up loosing 2 lbs (prolly from working my ass off lol) and the nausea is waning. I am to the poin now where I only get nauseated if I dont eat or stand to long in the same area. Tomorrow we will hear the heartbeat. I would post it except myspace keeps telling me that my videos are to large. *Sigh* The pud is in TN chasing kittens with her Mother and I am glad to know she is doing ok. I miss her already and she only left Sunday. Thats pretty much what’s going on. Nothing new. I will post tomorrow after the 11 week appointment. Have a great week folks.
1/31/2008
Well the heartbeat was 160. :-) According to my Mother it means its a girl. Based on the wives tail the girls beat stronger then boys do to a faster metabolism. Mom still thinks its a boy however. LOL The baby was hanging out on the left side of my uterus and the Doc said my rate of miscarriage has taken a serious drop at 11 weeks to only 2%. YEAH! So all is well folks.
2/5/2008
So this week was exciting we heard the heartbeat and I have been sleeping ALOT!!! I can't seem to help myself this process of making a baby from scratch is wearing my ass out. I look forward to the end of the 12 weeks blog when I will have gotten some of the energy back. I am so used to being independent with slight OCD's thats it hard to stand by and let someone else do it. I will hand it to Toni however she did a WONDERFUL job cleaning our house for me and I can't thank her enough for that. I need to WAKE up get my energy back and get my pregnant ass a functioning the way its supposed to. LOL I have virtually no appetite as well. Food doesn't taste like it should and I can want something bad only to get it and not really want it. I have been eating lopes and grapes like there going out of style and getting by on cereal bars glasses of milk and PBJ or scrapple and egg sandwiches. I know I am getting plently in the way of protein and especially fruit since it the only thing that tastes like it should. Anyhow... my pickiness means I am right where I am supposed to be as far as gaining weight so I guess its not to bad. Y'all have a great week. I am on a 4 day stretch and off this weekend. Later.
2/13/2008
12 weeks are over 27 more to go. I started week 13 today. The naseua is still hangin out but its bearable. I have a Doc appointment next Thursday and we need to discuss birth plans and all that jazz. Things are good... the mood could be better but I am hoping that will change when I get into this next trimester. They say its the worst in the first. Anyhow... Nothing to report. I gotta bump in my belly and a little one growing quickly. Have a great lovers day folks!
2/20/2008
So all is well. I have a alittle more energy and a healthy baby growing in my belly as we speak. Plans are being made for baby showers and family who also are gonna get pregnant this year. Its an exciting time for me. The aversions haven’t stopped as far as food is concerned. Who knows well all will return to normal in that dept. lol I have an apt next Thursday with the Doc to discuss birthplans and gender ultrasounds. I will keep you all posted on that one. I am happy to be over most the horrible shit and looking forward to the bump getting bigger and the movements therein. Toni says she can see my uterus shift but I still cant see it. Its like the bump moves one way or another but there is no tiny jabs yet. Anyhow... Hope you all are having a great week.
2/25/2008
Well there is more to report this week. I have gotten the flu and in so have prolly been scaring the crap outta of this baby since Friday. I jerk when I cough cause thats what happens when you have no neck muscles to push it out. (all do to the thyroid cancer) I have puked small amounts and I cant get rid of the mucus that’s seems to take over my body. Last night I was in a meeting with classmates online and I had to excuse myself. I felt like shit. I just sat there in our desk chair rocking back and fourth waiting for the wave of shit to hit me. I have been loading up on OJ and milk regardless that it might come up. The only thing working is Tylenol Sinus and Cold which relieves the mucus but makes my nose burn for about 2 hours. I am miserable. On a lighter note I was sittin in the tub today feeling what I can only describe as a cantaloupe in my belly. Its rock hard and completely uncomfortable to lay on or roll to far close to. My uterus is getting bigger. lol I have an appointment on Thursday for the OB for my 15 weeker. Things are well... babies fine though I am miserable. :-) Post more Thursday.
2/28/2008
So it didn’t take long to get the heartbeat on the doppler. Something like 10 seconds. We have a date for the ultrasound. Were gonna go on the 19th. :-) My sister who is also pregnant will be learning what her baby is the same day. Everything is fine and the Doc was great! How EXCITING!!! I am gonna try to post the video I don’t know if it will load or not.
3/5/2008
So as you can see I have gotten quite the bump. Toni and I have made the official appointment for the ultrasound I didn’t get my 19th of March date due to there was no appointments left that day and it takes 1 hour. So I had to wait until the 24th. The appointment is at 9:45 so I will post by noon that day to let you all know what were having. Nothing to report for still have food aversions but the appetite is back for the most part. Hope you all have a great week... and I hope the weekend gets here fast. Tina
3/6/2008
Thanks to Toni's friend at work signing up for a 3d ultrasound package Toni and I were given a deal and will be finding out the sex of our baby on Sunday! YEAH!!! So thats when all will know!!! PS. For mothers and potential preggos there is a huge consignment sale/expo for kids going on at Carroll County Ag center this weekend! I am taking a poll right now as well as to how many think its a boy and how many think its a girl so let me know your thoughts!
3/9/2008
A BOY!!!!!! :-) We saw all there was to see and its definite our baby has a scrotum and a penis. See future blogs for names. For sure his middle name will be Nicholaus but as far as first names we we haven’t decided for sure... stay tuned.
3/10/2008
Well now most of you know its a boy. :-) Let me tell you the story of the ultrasound. Toni and I went in. We waited anxiously. When I laid down on the table not more then 10 seconds later she said "Its a boy" Toni sat with her mouth open I said "Are you sure?" and the woman showed us where the "scrotum" and "penis" were. We were both in shock. I watched him do his exercise routine in my womb thanks to the Dunkin Donuts I had before I went in. He was lifting his bottom, praying, chewing, swallowing and kicking the crap out of my uterus to which I still am not able to feel 100%. I have gotten little flutters in my belly a couple times now. Once talking to a resident I work with and the other time was yesterday in the Walmart when Toni and I went to buy a tv stand for his room. :-) The pic on the profile clearly shows his little nose and ear. The women did a great job for me being 16 weeks pregnant and he is 1/2 inch longer then he should be at this point as well. So all is well. I added captions to some of the pics they took so you all know what your looking at. We are now able to call him he and him but the names are still up in the air. Toni seems to like Luca alot since talking to my belly this morning she mentioned it. It may grow on me enough to but that remains to be seen. Luca Nicholaus Stiltner. Hmmmm?Anyhow... that’s where we are... If you see me and I look like I still might be standing in shock that’s because I am. I didn’t fall off the ultrasound table (thankfully it was to wide) but it was a close thing. Have a great week folks.
3/12/2008
So we have a little boy. The name Luca Nicholaus has stuck and that will be the name used on the birth certificate when he comes into our world. I am starting to nest. Wanting to get the nursery together and thinking about parenthood and what lies ahead of me. Toni is just as excited she cant stop talking about everything and thats really nice to. :-) I found myself holding my belly and smiling thinking about his little nose in my profile picture. I felt the little flutters as mentioned but nothing significant yet. A girl I work with who is 19 weeks says her boyfriend has even been able to feel the bumps and grinds of her baby this past week so we look forward to that time. Soon since I snuggle up behind Toni when we sleep that’s all she will be able to feel. The baby is used to sleeping at night when I am working since I am constantly on the move. Around 4 am or so I feel small things going on but there so faint. The ultrasound lady tells me that’s since his bones are starting to calcify I will be feeling it much stronger soon. Next weekend is the circus (what I wanted to do for my 33rd bday) and I have been looking forward to that all week. I am like a big kid when Ringling Brothers comes to town. Anyway... Here is the update for 17 weeks. I will keep you all posted as we move along.
3/18/2008
So the end of this week is tonight at midnight. :-) I will begin my 18th week. The baby is easier to feel now. Toni felt him for sure last night the first time as there was a little poke to her hand when we were laying in bed last night. That was a great joy for me cause I think its important to share these things with your partner. I continue to read and dream (mostly about food LOL) and think about my baby boy. We have our "doctor" ultrasound complete with measurements and organs and all that on Monday after Easter. We are going to look over Toni’s sisters boys clothes this weekend and bringing all our girl stuff to her. We were surprised to learn that we have something like 58 sleepers and 39 onesies as well as a good number of receiving blankets, hats, socks, outfits, pants, shirts and even a couple winter suits for 0-3 months. :-) I have been loading up on comical rubber ducks for the nursery and thats been fun to. Anyhow... on to the 18th week. Almost half way there.
3/23/2008
Morning folks. I have gotten nearly 12 hours of sleep and I didn’t get up to pee once. It was heaven. (I have been making myself go 3 times within the hour of going to bed that way I don’t have to get up as soon. Yesterday we went to see the Pud. The Easter Aunt’s brought her a basket full of 3 Gerber graduate dinner, fruit snacks, banana cookies, new sippy cups, slippers, 2 DVD’s of Sesame street and veggie tales for which she says melmo and veg-gee. Plus some peeps, jelly beans, bubbles and melmo bubble bath that turns the water colors. We had a good time and she was awful snuggly. I sung and danced with her like an idiot but theres nothing you wont do when your around a kid who makes you feel like a kid yourself. :-) Those of your looking at my profile pic are prolly thinking how unpreggo I look. Life is a blessing when your nearly 6 feet and have a long torso. :-) Dont worry though under that jacket is a baby that is at the top of my belly button now and occasionally power driving my uterus. His little flutters have gotten stronger and there are times when it feels like he is doing the hokey pokey in there. Toni is excited in the prospect of a future NBA star so we can retire early lol and made it her mission to buy basketball related clothes which is too cute. Well folks... I got a dish washer to empty a shower to take and a mission to sort baby clothes and bring home gobs and gobs more. (Amanda Toni’s sister is giving us a SHIT load this morning and then were doing dinner over there.) I gotta tell you the thought of Ham and applesauce makes me smile... Later folks.. Tina HAPPY EASTER PEEPS!!!
3/24/2008
Well based on everything seen we still have a boy (who was not in the least bit shy to show), a good eater (by the looks of his belly). "quite the character" (from the words of the sonographer), and in perfect health. These are all good things to be happy about. She estimated my due date by his size around August 15 but as she said "baby will come when he wants to". :-) I will post newer pics soon. He has gotten around to moving more now. He has been quite active most the morning while his Mama is exhausted. LOL Have a great week folks!
4/2/2008
So Luca has fancied catching me off guard. LOL He bounces around in there like its no ones business while during the day he must be sleeping cause he has yet to wake me up unless its in the evening. Were running a pretty good schedule. In the evening he is really busy in there getting all that needs to get done making the womb a suitable place or something... I could swear at times he is pulling out a tool box. :-) Anyhow... things are going well. Mom and baby are healthy... Hope you all had a nice Easter. Tina
4/9/2008
So things are pretty much in full gear. As you can see the baby is growing quite well and practicing in the womb for the little fighter he will be when he gets here. A girl I work with is preggo as well and due a week before me so we have been comparing notes. Its nice to see someone go through it with you and compare notes. :-) Were both first timers. (in my case only timer in my own body lol) I look forward to moving forward and seeing little parts move and being able to identify them. Now I know the kicks in my lower belly are legs and the little flutters under my button are fists. Post more as we move along. Tina
4/21/2008
So I went to the Doc's today. Heartbeat is still great and we were VERY surprised to learn that from public bone to top of uterus my belly is 26 cms. This is supposed to measure to about what you are in weeks. I had to laugh when she said. I knew this was a big baby and he just keeps growing. :-) I have my glucose test next appointment as well as another TSH test. All is well folks. Have a good week folks!
4/29/2008
Well folks the second trimester is only a couple weeks from being over. I am feeling VERY pregnant these days. Luca has been quite the active little one in utero with his little tumbles, kicks, shifts and spasms. He was letting Toni know last night that he was in there when we were spoon/snuggling in the bed. There getting powerful enough to catch on video now. You can see little jabs coming off my ever growing stomach. He is hearing things outside the womb as well. I was singing while making breakfast this morning and let me know he was there and listening to which I said to him "Good Morning Luca". I am not swelling anywhere yet and my blood pressure has never been so good. The other night at work when I took it it was running 118/72 which it usually runs around 134/70 something. Now a days my blood volume is reaching that 50% more mark and blood flows easier which makes it nice. My life revolves around the little one in my belly. His needs, his movements, my nutrition, what needs to be done for his arrival and when the next Doc appointment is and what I need to do for it. Toni and I spend a lot of time talking about him and are constantly planning and preparing for the arrival. I look forward to the day when the hormones leave lol but I think a small part of me will miss not feeling him in there when he comes into this world. I look forward to checking him over. Comparing his little nose and eyes and fingers to my families and watching him grow into something we created in complete love. They say Mothers bond and get to know there baby when they start to feel them move. I have bonded with him long before the pee stick said yes. I am not one to pray but I do now and I did then. Luca= bringer of light and that’s exactly what he has done in every sense. 16 more weeks to go folks!
Tina and Luca
5/6/2008
So the nursery is done. I can’t tell you how relieved I feel about that one. I just ordered 24 more ducks (lol farmer and redneck ducks) to go in the room for less then 10 bucks Y'all! hehehehehe Anyhow... I think Toni and I did a really nice job with it and its exactly what I had in mind. Now all we need is a baby who is still cooking. I got up earlier to pee and had round ligament pain so damned bad I could have fell over lol. I thought if this is what labor pain feels like I am innnnn trouble. Anywhoo... Nothing to report that wasn’t going on last week. Here is the update for this weeks baby process...
5/10/2008
So today was our hospital tour at GBMC. :-) We learned a lot and got to see all the important areas of the hospital. Labor and delivery rooms were a nice sized, homey, with hardwood floors, flat screen tv's, breast pumps and a baby station. The C-section prep rooms were nice as well as the post partum rooms. At the end of the tour we visited the nursery where we seen 2 5 lbders that were born recently. They were so cute and SOOOO small. My thought is Luca will be MUCH larger but only time and the 36 week ultrasound will tell. Toni and I have scheduled our 30 week 3D ultrasound and will have measurements done then as well. New detailed pics will be posted of him at that time. I am excited. I felt a little silly being there 26 weeks into the pregnancy when the other mothers on tour were only a month or so away from that time for them. I have my next doc appointment on the 19th then after that I start going every 2 weeks. Luca has been very active in the evening bee-popping (as I call it) around all over the place. I dont really know how I manage to sleep through it and I feel bad for Toni sometimes cause she feels it when she is trying to sleep against her bottom. This morning as I got back in bed from taking a pee break I said "prepare to get kicked in the butt" lol cause I knew he was revin up. Happy Mother's Day to you all! Have a good weekend. Tina
5/16/2008
So I was counting my pregnant time and its really coming to an end. Soon I will be back to sleeping on my stomach, listing whatever I want, taking a tylenol when I need it, breaking out my Yoga video and enjoying life as a Mother of a beautiful baby to which I already love more than words can possibly express. I counted it down folks its 6 more paychecks, 6 more weekends off and 13 weeks. Last night I had a dream about August 11th. So the mini me might be born then. They say a Mother's dream are prophetic is some ways. I am ready for him to be here. (when he is through cooking that is) I have my Doc appointment on Monday morning along with my glucose test. Toni and I have a full weekend of taking Miss J to the zoo, going to sex toy bingo and relaxing. I am ready for the week to be over with! Last night. Intimacy I wanted to note here is a wonderful thing when your pregnant. When your snuggling your partner and you both are feeling your son move that can be one of those times that is cherished forever. I certainly will. Grant it we all still get hot and heavy (hell even preggo women have needs) but the little things mean so much. Anyhow... I am writing a letter for Luca to frame and hang on the nursery wall. I want him to know how much I love him and for that love to be displayed. Anyway... Y'all have a great weekend!!!! I am gonna go sit in the tub and listen to my audiobook. Tina
5/19/2008
Doc said I was measuring 30 centimeters and we will be doin an ultrasound at 32 weeks to get his size just to make sure he isnt growing to large. LOL I drank the nasty shit for the gestational diabetes test and it gave me the serious gitters so I have a couple days to wait on that one. Heartbeat was good along with the little kicks in between beats from Luca letting the nurse know he wasnt pleased with something touching my belly. I am supposed to start counting. 10 kicks in 12 hours which I know I can get out of him any one time I sit in a comfortable chair or lie down. He is a pretty active baby. Good news is I only gained 1 1b in the last 4 weeks so that’s good. :-) So folks everything is fine. He is growing like a weed and I am healthy. Have a good week!
6/1/2008
So this week came with a few surprises. As those of your who have been following my blog know I have suffered round ligament pain since the very beginning of pregnancy. Friday a whole different kind of pain hit me. I knew I didn’t have to fear labor cause it was centered in my hips and legs as well as my arms. Reading my books it says that a woman’s pelvis softens in the third trimester and can get a little painful. Well I am hear to tell you that I have a HIGH pain tolerance and that hurt like shit. I was in tears my legs hurt so bad and I had to break down and take Tylenol which I have not done since I was ill with a fever. I laid in bed the hole night unable to sleep because of it. On the side of smiles however Luca did get the hiccups yesterday. Toni and I listened to the thumps in the womb from my stethoscope after he started. Based on wear they were I would say he is in positioned now and head down. Next Sunday I will be posting the clear face shots of his 3D ultrasound. We will all get to see him before he even gets here. I am so excited. Have a nice weekend folks.
6/8/2008
Toni, me, her mom and my mom all went to see baby Luca in action. We learned that he was around 3.5 lbs and has taken all the food I eat and applied it to his cheeks. :-) The ultrasound was exciting and we got to see his hands and piggies. Leave it to my son to be holding his penis when she looked to see that indeed he is still a boy. He was TOO cute in action and very cooperative even doing some yoga moves for the camera lifting his knees and feet and putting them by his face. All is well in the womb folks! Enjoy the pics!! Some of the later pics BTW were his nose a little squished do to the closeness of the probe. She wanted to make sure they were as clear as possible giving the equivalent of a nose against glass look.
6/16/2008
So it has been an interesting weekend. Saturday Toni and I went to "the Avenue" to try it out with her family for Father's day. I don't recommend it. The food wasn't good at all and who the hell cooks liver and onions with no gravy. *Sigh* Afterwards we came home and I started a new Bentley Little book that is sure to give everyone the creeps. The last book gave me nightmares. I dont know what it is about this pregnancy usually I love HORROR movies as well but for some reason I have no desire to watch them instead I am reading books about men and women fucking environmental demons in order to create these half demons that go crazy and kill there families. If you like a good lusty scare folks this one will make you wanta go "Ewwwwww" but "Damn this guy is a good writer". The new one has to do with Witches and hell lol its called "Dominion". Sunday we surprised Tammy at her baby shower. And I was to learn that a co-worker is her Aunt in law. We had a great time. Afterwards we headed to Mom's to see the Pud (Jada) and spend a little time with her. Luca has been HIGHLY active all weekend long and we were speculating on what appendages were coming out earlier today. Today was a lay around do absolutely nothing pregnant day where that is exactly what I did. Nothing.. lol Nap, eat, watch tv, nap some more... :-) When we are going to see the priest about a christening for Luca and then Thurs is appointment to discuss changes in the birth plan and the next ultrasound. It will be then we see what and how much more Luca is measuring. I know for sure that my belly has stretched and I predict he will stay up with his 3 cm change. The last time I was there I wasn’t nearly as big as I am now. I look pregnant and it pretty impossible to hide. 9 more weeks to go folks! Here is the baby center update for the week....
6/19/2008
So today was the day we went over the birth plan and talked about getting that growth ultrasound. Luca's heartbeat was 138 which was good considering he was sleeping and I am pretty sure facing my back. As the pregnancy gets closer to its end it is easier to start worrying about everything. I love him so much I can’t fathom anything happening to him it would kill me and I am constantly aware of everything going on. Yesterday he exceeded his kick quota but I still worried cause he wasn’t as active as normal it was one of his slow days and it doesn’t help that I slept most the day away and wouldn’t know one way or another. She says I am still boring and that I have nothing to worry about but I don’t think any Mother could be so carefree this close to the end. I go back in 2 weeks for the 33 week appointment and then back again for the 35 week appointment and the growth ultrasound. So all is well... we get closer to the end and closer to the day he comes into the world. *Sigh* 9 more weeks to go.
6/30/2008
This weekend was what I needed folks. My body is getting so tired and so uncomfortable that its nearly impossible not to stress. Needless to say we had a great time. See pics for the adventures. I have an appointment with her this Thursday and another 2 day stretch thanks to July 4th holiday. Only a 3 day work week WOOHOOOOOOO! :-) Here's the update for the week!
7/2/2008
So I was admitted to the hospital last night because I had a heart rate that went upwards to 135 along with several pauses in the beat in the 24 hours period I was there. I am fine. Luca is great nothing is wrong with him at all in fact his heart rate was great and his activity is excellent I was the one with the issues. Its called Pregnancy Related Tachycardia (sp?). Which means the pregnancy has cause me to have a serious heart rate issue. They had me hook up to a heart monitor on the cardiac floor all night last night as well as an IV drip of fluids in case I didn’t drink enough. *sigh* I hate hospitals!!!!! I learned that the little spells I have been having over the course of the pregnancy were due to this issue and like a putz never thought to check my pulse when they were happening until the other night. She told me to take the rest of the week I am going back to work on Sat. night. I have an appointment with her tomorrow for a reg OB checkup and will post more when that’s done. Later folks.
7/7/2008
I am still having small bouts of this tachycardia thing but I am doin ok. With a little over 6 weeks left I am preparing for anything. I have talked to my job and my hours have been cut from 40 a week to 32 allowing me a little xtra R&R. The baby is growing like a weed. He has lost a lot of room in there do to the fact that he is getting so big so his movements are more knuckle scraping the placenta feeling. Less jabs more rolls it seems lol. I cant imagine what it is like to be in that little tiny space with no room to really move or float like he was able to before. The Doc said she wants me to follow up with her cardiologist at GBMC to whom I will be making an appointment with tomorrow. His heartbeat is fine in the 130's to 140 something. No braxton hicks yet (I am hoping I will recognize it if it happens) and more trips to the pot. Luca is still sitting high so all is well. The 19th we have our growth ultrasound and I am excited to learn how big he really is. Have a good week. Tina
7/14/2008
So the last heart monitor quoted my heart rate somewhere at times around 160. I will be hearing from the cardiologist today about all that. My 32 hour work week has started and I am beginning to feel a little bit better. The extra time off allows me to take frequent naps and sit on my ass with my feet up which is something I believe all pregnant women should do as much as possible in the third trimester. My belly is getting bigger and bigger everyday! Luca is packing it on and its getting harder and harder to eat a normal meal without being so uncomfortable I wanta puke. I am counting down the days. We have our growth ultrasound on Friday to see just how much he is weighing in at and hopefully we will find out which method and how soon he will be getting here as well. *Sigh* Pregnancy is a hard job folks. I know I have said it a million times but I applaud all you women who had the balls to do it more then once. HE IS ALMOST HERE! WOOOHOOO!
7/18/2008
So today we learned that suspicions are right. I have what they call a "macro" baby. Luca is only as supposed to as I mention weigh in at 6 lbs. He is a lb and 3 ozs over that. (7.3) Due to all this I am gonna have to go twice a week. Tuesdays for a non stress test and an ultrasound to measure amniotic fluid level. Then Friday for a regular appointment. This is just a precaution to monitor his growth and progress. His heart rate was in the 150's all looked good on the ultrasound. He wouldn’t be cooperative for pics since he is facing my back so the ones we got were of feet and the side of his face. He was sleeping after partying most the night last night while I was at work. We did see him practicing his breathing which was cool as well. He hasn't dropped and I am not at all dilated so the Doc says unless I go into labor sometime between now and the 12th of August we are having a baby sometimes between the 13th and the 20th either by C-section if he gets to large or by induction. I will keep you posted on that one as the time goes by. I will post the pics then I need to get some sleep. I am exhausted!
7/22/2008
There will be an update to this post if the Doc sees anything on my Non Stress test today. Toni and I have an appointment at GBMC at 11 to lake sure the little guy is all right. He is very active as I mentioned (though currently sleeping :-) and doing well. There is a place on my side where you can see the rhythmic up and downs as he practice breathing in his little home at certain times of the day. We continue to progress and anxiously look forward to the 13th. :-) UPDATE: Luca passed his first NST (non stress test) though the nurse called him bad. LOL He kept pushing on the contraction monitor moving out of reach of the heart beat monitor. She had to come in and readjust it. Turns out unbeknownst to me that I will be spending a couple hours at the hospital at Friday cause I have the non stress test, the amniotic fluid check and my exam all then and just a NST on Tuesdays. *Sigh* All is well. Toni and I got a laugh out of it as we watched him move around the monitors. His heart rate did the accelerations (135-160) it should on his movements which she only needed to see 2 in 20 minutes he gave her more then her moneys worth. That our boy! :-)
7/25/2008
Luca had lots of fun today beating on the monitors for the stress test and driving yet another nurse batty. LOL The ultrasound lady pissed him off when she went to take pics and had to wake him up. He looks like a mini Buddha at this point. (see pics in the albums) We have elected to have a primary c section due to his size. I am measuring 39 weeks. She didn’t check me this week and says she will do it next week amongst the testing. Those of you who chose to be on the call list will get a call on the day of the C-section with a time that it is ok to come. Anyone who hasn’t been put on there only need call us or email us saying they would like to come to the hospital and we will put you on the list. Don’t worry were a couple weeks away yet assuming I don’t go into labor on my own. Leave some love on the pics. I gotta get home and get some shut eye!
Night LOL
Tina
7/29/2008
So Toni and I were awarded with some nervousness today. Luca was apparently feeling lazy (I say when your that big with that little space it isn’t unusual to find a comfortable place and lay there). He moved but the monitor didn’t catch it (except one good time) so we headed upstairs for a biophysical profile. The BPP is a ultrasound that sees him move, breath and measures his fluids. He passed with flying colors and rewarded the ultrasound tech with more grumpy faces to which she went around the office showing everyone. LMAO Next time were taking some sweets in with us for the NST so we don’t have to go through all that again. He is a evening mover and a day sleeper. Everything is fine. His heart rate is normal (143) and he's still growing. The lady in Doc Hunter's office said she could see him easily being 9 lbs and some change. :-) Friday is another NST, AFI and exam. Who knows he may be coming sooner then the 13th I will keep you posted. Luca is seriously loosing space.
7/31/2008
So I thought I had it rough before (HAH! That wasn’t nothing). Folks I have a very high pain tolerance. I can't tell you how many times I got my ass kicked by those horses only to get up and laugh about it or how many times I did some serious damage only to forget what I had done. Well now I got a large baby sitting on my cervix and man something has to be happening. Its been decided that my best bet it to take it easy until the big day. While he is considered full term I dont want him to come out until I am positively sure he is 100%. I started nesting yesterday cleaning anything I could get my hands on and today I have scrubbed the upstairs bathroom from end to the next. What can I say bleach is the clean smell. I only had 6 days left of work so I am gonna use this time off to finish whatever last minute prep stuff there is to do. (Hell I even took out a pork roast for dinner tonight to through in the crock pot). Whenever I go a little nuts like this I know my Grandmother still lives in me. My belly is huge at this point (although people still keep telling me that I carry it well do to my height) I wish I felt like I was carrying it a little better. I prolly tossed and turned last night from one hip to the next about 100 times. Poor Toni lol she turns with me whenever I move so its so wonder she gets any sleep at all. Anyhow... I am gonna sit down a bit and resume my list. I have one more thing to post and then we will be good. Those of you out of staters or people who don’t live close by will be able to read the blogs of Luca's birth when it happens as well as see pics right here on myspace. When Toni gets home tonight I will have her take pics of the 37 week belly for guesses on weight. Later gators.
8/1/2008
There has been "bloody show". I am taking it easy now. No contractions yet other then braxton hicks earlier. I don’t know if the show was from the exam since it happened hours later and there was nothing before that. So who knows. Baby could be getting close but still we wait. I will update as we move along.
8/3/2008
So there were some rather large globs of pink (not red) mucus in the toilet this morning. The plug is working its way out. I have had repeat wipes with pinkish discharge that I am gonna assume is the mucus plug still coming. At this point I am wishing I hadn’t let Dr. Hunter check me the other day cause that would mean I wouldn’t be spending my weekend stressing about things coming out of my bug. *sigh* Anyhow.. No contractions. Luca is still very active and things are going well. I have NO energy whatsoever at this point. I feel like its all drifted away someplace else. I have been napping several hours a day and still no energy. Being pregnant is worse then going hypo for my thyroid RAI. I feel like a slug... LOL Have a great weekend folks its back to the couch for me.
8/5/2008
So Luca decided since he was overactive yesterday LOL that he needed a long rest this morning. The more we bugged him the more he said to hell with us and found some other position with which to be comfortable. His heartbeat baseline was 143 so we headed upstairs for another biophysical profile. He passed again with flying colors and I got props for drinking as much as I do cause his amniotic fluid level is still realllllyyyyy good for a baby his size. The Ultrasound Tech snuck a measurement in for me and Luca is knowing about 9lbs. By the time he is born he will be 9 lbs and some change no problem. I am seriously tired today. I feel like I am carrying triplets and my stomach is HUGE! The circum. of his head is 14 inches and let me tell you I am feeling every bit of that in the groin area. This woman was on baby story yesterday saying "Oh I am gonna say this one is between 6 and 8 lbs" then they pulled out a 5 lb baby and I proceeded to tell the woman that she was full of shit. 5 lbs my ass. One of the girls at work told me that she never knew how many people were against c sections and believe that a baby should come out naturally. This is what I say to you people. When there is a chance that the baby could be injured, aggressively removed, stuck or there is not possible way that its fitting out your hooch there is nothing wrong with a nice peaceful delivery. I was sitting through a cpr class the other day and one of the girls mentioned that her mother was able to deliver an 11lb baby naturally I proceeded to ask her what number that child was. When she told me 4 I said well her shit had worked its way to that point my shit has not. LOL Point made. Anyhow... Luca is doing well just loosing room. Hopefully Ill go into labor before the next appointment. Keep your fingers crossed.
8/8/2008
So today was the last appointment. We went for our NST Luca moved like crazy only again the lady didn’t have the monitor on correctly and so we ended up sitting there for 20 minutes while he bounced around until she came back and fixed it in which he was ready for a little nap. Half through the last half hour we were in there he woke up again and did his little bouncing thing 3 good times for the monitor and we were considered reactive. His heartbeat was in the 120's while he slept after she fixed it and that worried me a little so I brought that up with Doc Hunter she said he was asleep and he’s a boy there hear trate it just lower. The longer he is the more I worry about him. No contractions on the monitor so we headed upstairs. We went into ultrasound next and watch him (who is now completely facing my back which is good) grab hold of his piggies and playing with his toes. (See pictures) Everything was measured and again he passed another biophysical with flying colors. From there we went into the exam and Doc hunter joked around telling me I was overdue by 2 cm's. Ha ha! We went into her office and she told us about the procedure for the C-section. I will go in at 8:15 be hooked up to the monitor, shaved, have blood drawn, have a catheter inserted and then at 10:15 be wheeled into the c section delivery room/ OR have the spinal inserted and then be laid back for the procedure. 10 minutes after that Luca will be here. Its a waiting game. I spent the night moaning every time I moved cause it feels like laying there with a broken tailbone. I am swelling in places to and was told to go home and relax so that’s what the plan is. Also if I do go into labor over the weekend or before Wends all I have to do is go in and tell them I am a scheduled c section. Watch out world cause in this phase a pregnant woman has a license to go nuts. I have already told one guy to put his eyes back in his fucking head and nearly cussed out an old man in the wa wa. :-) It wouldn’t take much for some perky nurse to come in and piss me off... Have a great weekend.
So Toni and I had some heart wrenching news. Apparently I surged for real and clearly 2 days after the insemination and peaked and ovulated 4 days after. I seriously doubt our donors sperm could live in my body that long since he is older. There is maybe a 1% chance I am pregnant but I doubt it. We still won't know until the 6 and will retest again the 8th. Toni and I were both pretty tore up about it. The Clomid is very VERY hard on the body. I was very achy, moody and emotional the entire time I was on it and have decided not to do another month. It kinda like taking you out of your body and replacing you with a real BITCH! While all of us know a few of those some of live in fear of turning into them. *Sigh* I didn't like it. Toni will be the one to carry. We are gonna wait about 6 month if I am not then we will try with her. Her cycle is excellent its runs as it should when it should and she won't need to take anything. Nature will take over. I am really sad about this but there isn't much I can do. Hope you all have a great night... we are baking Christmas cookies tonight. Pics to be posted in albums.
12/6/2007
Everyone will know the results of the first test. Its says you can take it 5 days before you missed period so it’s ok to take it tonight. At or around 5 most of you will have you first but not final answer. The second test is the first is negative will be taking on Monday the day after my period is late if that happens. Again this is a 1 in 1 million shot. I am headed to hibernate in the bed... Negative folks. Will retest if no period on Monday. But there is almost no chance something even a faint line would have shown today. 12/8/2007
Ok so I had crazy ass dreams last night. Even though I am not pregnant in real life the first dream I dreamt I had quads and was trying to save them. It was 3 girls and a boy. The identical girls each had a brown and blue eye. The identical girl had blue eyes and the little boy had the reddest hair I have ever seen. At one point I knew a large truck was gonna hit the rear of the car and I threw myself between the hatchback and the quads and ended up in a coma. When I woke up they were 4. VERY weird. I had to wake up from that dream I had the second which is where I ended up at a lesbian festival slash best buy and was deaf almost the entire time I was there. The only thing I was able to hear with the flash of something was "If all you have to offer me is air, Then breath Rae into me..." it was a little freaky. Before goin to bed I had read the Coyote or Shadow Self meditation to prepare myself before sleep. This is one where you never know what your gonna get... Wow. The possibility of quads is next to none with Toni the one getting pregnant however... I think this dream was trying to tell me that I will end up being an awesome Mother. The fact that I will protect beyond the means of my own existence says something... As for the other one well silence is supposed to teach me something...God knows the Clomid (we think were not sure what is causing it) made my voice shit. I was back to where I was after my surgery sounding almost completely hoarse and its just now going back to where I had it. Have a great weekend folks. I am gonna tackle this damned paper and sit have some pizza with my girl...
12/13/2007
Hi ya folks! So As you all know I found out I was pregnant. It truly is a miracle because the chances were PRETTY slim but as Toni sister put it I guess I got to be that 1. :-) I have been for 2 blood draws with one to go. All for my HCG and Progesterone. My HCG went from 28 to 75 so I nearly tripled the baby making process and am starting to feel the affects of that extra hormone. Rachel Pepper in "The Ultimate Lesbian Guide to Pregnancy" says as women we make baby’s from scratch and that makes us tired as shit. I am finding that out. She said its the equlivalent of scaling a mountain in a day which is a lot of work. My progesterone which is why I took the clomid to begin with is fluctuating but they say thats normal. I am taking progesterone supplements prescribed by my Fertility Doc to give the baby that extra "Umphhhh" to get through everything and add progesterone to my uterus. I have found that I cannot stand the site of cheese or yogurt. The thought makes me want to puke though I don’t mind ice cream or milk. I know weird... No constant cravings yet. More to post following the end of next week. Today starts week 5. :-)
12/17/2007
So I just thought I would post that this baby is a go getter a lot like its Mama. :-) He or she has tripled the HCG results yet again. I went from 28 to 75 to 223. Yeah! And the Progesterone is back up in better places. It went from 14.67 to 10 to 16.26 Yeah! LOL I still have to do the suppositories which are a pain in the ass but you do it. :-) The cravings have started. I have been eating a lot of turkey bacon and craving shellfish and pineapple. LOL And this Thursday assuming I can get them scanned I will post pics of the little one in the 6 week ultrasound. Toni is videotaping the monitor as well. So that’s all the news that is news folks... Post more later this week. Tina n Child.
12/20/2007
So folks I did it. The first vaginal ultrasound of what was supposed to be my 6th week. But since I didn't ovulate until the 28th Doc Hinton said it was only my 5th week. So I am 5 weeks 1 day preggo. There was 1 sac THANK GOD lol and no heartbeat since it doesn't start to beat until next week. The baby isn't big enough to see yet but the sac was clearly visible. We have an ultrasound pic of the that I will post tomorrow. I was disappointed not to be so far along. I really wanted to see a little heartbeat in the sac but no such luck. However the baby is where he or she is supposed to be. Now its just a matter of waiting another week to get out of the woods and declare the viable pregnancy. I am an impatient Aries so this makes it difficult. The nausea hit last night and started again today which Doc Hinton says is a good sign lol. I was thinking what about the atomic titties and the mood swings... this crazy Doc wants me to have morning sickness. *sigh* So here it comes... Tonight I am gonna sit my ass in bed and eat a pint of ice cream after I get some sleep. I am EXHAUSTED!
12/27/2007
There isn't much to say except there was a heartbeat and a baby that doubled his/her size. :-) It is such a miracle seeing the heartbeat flicker on the screen. So amazing and so tear provoking! WOW! I will post pics tomorrow. Tonight is about a movie some snuggling and rest... its been a long day full of happiness. Tina Ps. the nausea has started and my Doc is excited about it. LOL Crackers and ginger ale will become my new best friends I think.
1/1/2008
So as I mentioned before the nausea is on like a rampaging bull. It starts in the evening and lasts until about 11. Doesn't matter what I eat it still there. It comes for a little while in the afternoon but not so much I feel like I have to throw up. My dreams have become incredibly vivid and baby is growing like crazy! So far so good. I have 2 days of work this week then I am off for a weeks vacation to the Caribbean. :-) That will be able to help me relax into my 8th week but Toni and I will not be online throughout that time. This is a relaxing vacation and I need it. Pregnancy is a lot of work on the body and I am constantly tired. :-) I couldn't have picked a better time to get pregnant though cause it going by quickly and the holidays and the fact that my bday and books will come out in the spring and our 3 months off of school should help with everything as well. Our first official OB appointment is Thursday and if there is anything to post I will before we go. Happy New Year to you all and may it give you all the blessing it has given us. Tina
1/14/2008
Well being on a cruise and being pregnant is not an easy task. I did get to enjoy something’s like 1 coke a day and snorkeling as well as the walking tour we went on in San Juan. I usually don't find history interesting but this was history mixed with religion which was. It took me a while to feel up to par. Last week I had to flu that knocked me on my ass. Once that was gone I could deal with the morning sickness. LOL Being pregnant is tiring and its not doing shit for my appetite. While most people dined gourmet on the ship I ate baked potatoes, fruit and icecream. The thought of putting anything with Fois Gras or baby cow in my mouth literally made me want to throw up. Every port just about Toni and I had real food. In Puerto Rico I had chicken salad and in St. Thomas I had chicken salad as well. (my aversion to chicken is gone though I can't stand cream cheese or yogurt) potatoes are my friend since there bland and yesterday I was craving ham and cheese sandwiches on bagel with ketchup and chips on it (that’s not a pregnancy craving that’s just something I like to eat my Grandmother got me hooked LOL). I also had REALLY good wings at Senor Frogs in the Bahamas’. Not sure what the little bean thought of that but it tasted good going down. LOL I am regaining some of my energy though I can sleep 12 hours straight with no problem. Things are good the baby is well and we will get to hear the heartbeat on the 31st at my next appointment. Ciao folks! Enjoy your week.
1/20/2008
You know I woke up this afternoon with the song "heroes and friends" in my head. My Grandmother must have been in one of my numerous dreams. The chorus to that song sounded like some the advice she would have given me when she were here. I started thinking about pregnant belly and how blessed I truly am. If there was ever a woman in this world who took pride in being a Mother or could have shown me how precious such a gift was it would be her. She showed me what unconditional love for someone else meant and how much joy there could be in being someone's mother. I think a lot of people take that for granted. I understand now why bear came to me. It was to prepare me for this gift after all do you know a fiercer mother or one who will go above and beyond the call of duty to care for there cub? There is a law in the Alaskan wilderness that says "Never come between a Grizzly bear and her cub!" My doctor called the other day and said there was an issue with my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone). What's new right? I live with a reminder of my cancer every time I look in the mirror and I swear going to the Doc's is like going to the DMV its never good news. So I wasn't able to reach her back so I will have to try on Monday. I will keep you updated. Most likely she will tell me it's to low. Well it's always had to be low to keep the cancer away. Being pregnant and until I am 10 to 12 weeks the baby depends on those numbers. I had my thyroid decreased for this reason but I guess it wasn't enough of a decrease. I don't have to fear miscarriage from I just need to be careful. There isn't much out there on Pregnancy after Thyroid Cancer. Anyway… That's all to report. I just needed to write so I did.
1/22/2008
So she called me Monday morning. I didn't even need to call her. My TSH is low and she wants me to talk to my Endo Dr. Mersey about that. Well for once I would like to keep Doc Mersey outta of some portion of my life but it doesn't look like that will happen. I will call him today and see what he says. The T3 is what they baby depends on and mine is fine. So we will see what he says... *sigh* I am headed back to bed shortly... *yawn* Have a great week folks. Tina
1/26/2008
So things are going well. Work is good. I like the people I work with. We make a great team. It’s important to have that in any profession. My dreams have become super vivd lately. I have had one last week about being in a small mote flipping turtle right side up. The dream I had last night was incredibly odd. I ended up threatening a man who was stealing from people in plane site and when we went to punch my stomach I snapped his neck. (Toni said it was morbid I say no one messes with this baby!) -----> Does not fuck around! Period. Anyhow... technicolor dreams are my reality right now. I gotta say I kinda like it. Though everyone knows my dreams can get a little fucked up. :-) Hence the new background for this blog. I thought she deserved a place somewhere on here and when I saw this picture it literally took my breath away... The weekend is gonna be nice. Toni and I are going to see the "Bucket List" tonight. I have been wanting to see it and people I know who have said it was a great movie. I had some schezuan string beans and now I am ready for bed. Who knows what will happen this time around... Nite peeps. Tina
1/30/2008
Nothing to report. I ended up loosing 2 lbs (prolly from working my ass off lol) and the nausea is waning. I am to the poin now where I only get nauseated if I dont eat or stand to long in the same area. Tomorrow we will hear the heartbeat. I would post it except myspace keeps telling me that my videos are to large. *Sigh* The pud is in TN chasing kittens with her Mother and I am glad to know she is doing ok. I miss her already and she only left Sunday. Thats pretty much what’s going on. Nothing new. I will post tomorrow after the 11 week appointment. Have a great week folks.
1/31/2008
Well the heartbeat was 160. :-) According to my Mother it means its a girl. Based on the wives tail the girls beat stronger then boys do to a faster metabolism. Mom still thinks its a boy however. LOL The baby was hanging out on the left side of my uterus and the Doc said my rate of miscarriage has taken a serious drop at 11 weeks to only 2%. YEAH! So all is well folks.
2/5/2008
So this week was exciting we heard the heartbeat and I have been sleeping ALOT!!! I can't seem to help myself this process of making a baby from scratch is wearing my ass out. I look forward to the end of the 12 weeks blog when I will have gotten some of the energy back. I am so used to being independent with slight OCD's thats it hard to stand by and let someone else do it. I will hand it to Toni however she did a WONDERFUL job cleaning our house for me and I can't thank her enough for that. I need to WAKE up get my energy back and get my pregnant ass a functioning the way its supposed to. LOL I have virtually no appetite as well. Food doesn't taste like it should and I can want something bad only to get it and not really want it. I have been eating lopes and grapes like there going out of style and getting by on cereal bars glasses of milk and PBJ or scrapple and egg sandwiches. I know I am getting plently in the way of protein and especially fruit since it the only thing that tastes like it should. Anyhow... my pickiness means I am right where I am supposed to be as far as gaining weight so I guess its not to bad. Y'all have a great week. I am on a 4 day stretch and off this weekend. Later.
2/13/2008
12 weeks are over 27 more to go. I started week 13 today. The naseua is still hangin out but its bearable. I have a Doc appointment next Thursday and we need to discuss birth plans and all that jazz. Things are good... the mood could be better but I am hoping that will change when I get into this next trimester. They say its the worst in the first. Anyhow... Nothing to report. I gotta bump in my belly and a little one growing quickly. Have a great lovers day folks!
2/20/2008
So all is well. I have a alittle more energy and a healthy baby growing in my belly as we speak. Plans are being made for baby showers and family who also are gonna get pregnant this year. Its an exciting time for me. The aversions haven’t stopped as far as food is concerned. Who knows well all will return to normal in that dept. lol I have an apt next Thursday with the Doc to discuss birthplans and gender ultrasounds. I will keep you all posted on that one. I am happy to be over most the horrible shit and looking forward to the bump getting bigger and the movements therein. Toni says she can see my uterus shift but I still cant see it. Its like the bump moves one way or another but there is no tiny jabs yet. Anyhow... Hope you all are having a great week.
2/25/2008
Well there is more to report this week. I have gotten the flu and in so have prolly been scaring the crap outta of this baby since Friday. I jerk when I cough cause thats what happens when you have no neck muscles to push it out. (all do to the thyroid cancer) I have puked small amounts and I cant get rid of the mucus that’s seems to take over my body. Last night I was in a meeting with classmates online and I had to excuse myself. I felt like shit. I just sat there in our desk chair rocking back and fourth waiting for the wave of shit to hit me. I have been loading up on OJ and milk regardless that it might come up. The only thing working is Tylenol Sinus and Cold which relieves the mucus but makes my nose burn for about 2 hours. I am miserable. On a lighter note I was sittin in the tub today feeling what I can only describe as a cantaloupe in my belly. Its rock hard and completely uncomfortable to lay on or roll to far close to. My uterus is getting bigger. lol I have an appointment on Thursday for the OB for my 15 weeker. Things are well... babies fine though I am miserable. :-) Post more Thursday.
2/28/2008
So it didn’t take long to get the heartbeat on the doppler. Something like 10 seconds. We have a date for the ultrasound. Were gonna go on the 19th. :-) My sister who is also pregnant will be learning what her baby is the same day. Everything is fine and the Doc was great! How EXCITING!!! I am gonna try to post the video I don’t know if it will load or not.
3/5/2008
So as you can see I have gotten quite the bump. Toni and I have made the official appointment for the ultrasound I didn’t get my 19th of March date due to there was no appointments left that day and it takes 1 hour. So I had to wait until the 24th. The appointment is at 9:45 so I will post by noon that day to let you all know what were having. Nothing to report for still have food aversions but the appetite is back for the most part. Hope you all have a great week... and I hope the weekend gets here fast. Tina
3/6/2008
Thanks to Toni's friend at work signing up for a 3d ultrasound package Toni and I were given a deal and will be finding out the sex of our baby on Sunday! YEAH!!! So thats when all will know!!! PS. For mothers and potential preggos there is a huge consignment sale/expo for kids going on at Carroll County Ag center this weekend! I am taking a poll right now as well as to how many think its a boy and how many think its a girl so let me know your thoughts!
3/9/2008
A BOY!!!!!! :-) We saw all there was to see and its definite our baby has a scrotum and a penis. See future blogs for names. For sure his middle name will be Nicholaus but as far as first names we we haven’t decided for sure... stay tuned.
3/10/2008
Well now most of you know its a boy. :-) Let me tell you the story of the ultrasound. Toni and I went in. We waited anxiously. When I laid down on the table not more then 10 seconds later she said "Its a boy" Toni sat with her mouth open I said "Are you sure?" and the woman showed us where the "scrotum" and "penis" were. We were both in shock. I watched him do his exercise routine in my womb thanks to the Dunkin Donuts I had before I went in. He was lifting his bottom, praying, chewing, swallowing and kicking the crap out of my uterus to which I still am not able to feel 100%. I have gotten little flutters in my belly a couple times now. Once talking to a resident I work with and the other time was yesterday in the Walmart when Toni and I went to buy a tv stand for his room. :-) The pic on the profile clearly shows his little nose and ear. The women did a great job for me being 16 weeks pregnant and he is 1/2 inch longer then he should be at this point as well. So all is well. I added captions to some of the pics they took so you all know what your looking at. We are now able to call him he and him but the names are still up in the air. Toni seems to like Luca alot since talking to my belly this morning she mentioned it. It may grow on me enough to but that remains to be seen. Luca Nicholaus Stiltner. Hmmmm?Anyhow... that’s where we are... If you see me and I look like I still might be standing in shock that’s because I am. I didn’t fall off the ultrasound table (thankfully it was to wide) but it was a close thing. Have a great week folks.
3/12/2008
So we have a little boy. The name Luca Nicholaus has stuck and that will be the name used on the birth certificate when he comes into our world. I am starting to nest. Wanting to get the nursery together and thinking about parenthood and what lies ahead of me. Toni is just as excited she cant stop talking about everything and thats really nice to. :-) I found myself holding my belly and smiling thinking about his little nose in my profile picture. I felt the little flutters as mentioned but nothing significant yet. A girl I work with who is 19 weeks says her boyfriend has even been able to feel the bumps and grinds of her baby this past week so we look forward to that time. Soon since I snuggle up behind Toni when we sleep that’s all she will be able to feel. The baby is used to sleeping at night when I am working since I am constantly on the move. Around 4 am or so I feel small things going on but there so faint. The ultrasound lady tells me that’s since his bones are starting to calcify I will be feeling it much stronger soon. Next weekend is the circus (what I wanted to do for my 33rd bday) and I have been looking forward to that all week. I am like a big kid when Ringling Brothers comes to town. Anyway... Here is the update for 17 weeks. I will keep you all posted as we move along.
3/18/2008
So the end of this week is tonight at midnight. :-) I will begin my 18th week. The baby is easier to feel now. Toni felt him for sure last night the first time as there was a little poke to her hand when we were laying in bed last night. That was a great joy for me cause I think its important to share these things with your partner. I continue to read and dream (mostly about food LOL) and think about my baby boy. We have our "doctor" ultrasound complete with measurements and organs and all that on Monday after Easter. We are going to look over Toni’s sisters boys clothes this weekend and bringing all our girl stuff to her. We were surprised to learn that we have something like 58 sleepers and 39 onesies as well as a good number of receiving blankets, hats, socks, outfits, pants, shirts and even a couple winter suits for 0-3 months. :-) I have been loading up on comical rubber ducks for the nursery and thats been fun to. Anyhow... on to the 18th week. Almost half way there.
3/23/2008
Morning folks. I have gotten nearly 12 hours of sleep and I didn’t get up to pee once. It was heaven. (I have been making myself go 3 times within the hour of going to bed that way I don’t have to get up as soon. Yesterday we went to see the Pud. The Easter Aunt’s brought her a basket full of 3 Gerber graduate dinner, fruit snacks, banana cookies, new sippy cups, slippers, 2 DVD’s of Sesame street and veggie tales for which she says melmo and veg-gee. Plus some peeps, jelly beans, bubbles and melmo bubble bath that turns the water colors. We had a good time and she was awful snuggly. I sung and danced with her like an idiot but theres nothing you wont do when your around a kid who makes you feel like a kid yourself. :-) Those of your looking at my profile pic are prolly thinking how unpreggo I look. Life is a blessing when your nearly 6 feet and have a long torso. :-) Dont worry though under that jacket is a baby that is at the top of my belly button now and occasionally power driving my uterus. His little flutters have gotten stronger and there are times when it feels like he is doing the hokey pokey in there. Toni is excited in the prospect of a future NBA star so we can retire early lol and made it her mission to buy basketball related clothes which is too cute. Well folks... I got a dish washer to empty a shower to take and a mission to sort baby clothes and bring home gobs and gobs more. (Amanda Toni’s sister is giving us a SHIT load this morning and then were doing dinner over there.) I gotta tell you the thought of Ham and applesauce makes me smile... Later folks.. Tina HAPPY EASTER PEEPS!!!
3/24/2008
Well based on everything seen we still have a boy (who was not in the least bit shy to show), a good eater (by the looks of his belly). "quite the character" (from the words of the sonographer), and in perfect health. These are all good things to be happy about. She estimated my due date by his size around August 15 but as she said "baby will come when he wants to". :-) I will post newer pics soon. He has gotten around to moving more now. He has been quite active most the morning while his Mama is exhausted. LOL Have a great week folks!
4/2/2008
So Luca has fancied catching me off guard. LOL He bounces around in there like its no ones business while during the day he must be sleeping cause he has yet to wake me up unless its in the evening. Were running a pretty good schedule. In the evening he is really busy in there getting all that needs to get done making the womb a suitable place or something... I could swear at times he is pulling out a tool box. :-) Anyhow... things are going well. Mom and baby are healthy... Hope you all had a nice Easter. Tina
4/9/2008
So things are pretty much in full gear. As you can see the baby is growing quite well and practicing in the womb for the little fighter he will be when he gets here. A girl I work with is preggo as well and due a week before me so we have been comparing notes. Its nice to see someone go through it with you and compare notes. :-) Were both first timers. (in my case only timer in my own body lol) I look forward to moving forward and seeing little parts move and being able to identify them. Now I know the kicks in my lower belly are legs and the little flutters under my button are fists. Post more as we move along. Tina
4/21/2008
So I went to the Doc's today. Heartbeat is still great and we were VERY surprised to learn that from public bone to top of uterus my belly is 26 cms. This is supposed to measure to about what you are in weeks. I had to laugh when she said. I knew this was a big baby and he just keeps growing. :-) I have my glucose test next appointment as well as another TSH test. All is well folks. Have a good week folks!
4/29/2008
Well folks the second trimester is only a couple weeks from being over. I am feeling VERY pregnant these days. Luca has been quite the active little one in utero with his little tumbles, kicks, shifts and spasms. He was letting Toni know last night that he was in there when we were spoon/snuggling in the bed. There getting powerful enough to catch on video now. You can see little jabs coming off my ever growing stomach. He is hearing things outside the womb as well. I was singing while making breakfast this morning and let me know he was there and listening to which I said to him "Good Morning Luca". I am not swelling anywhere yet and my blood pressure has never been so good. The other night at work when I took it it was running 118/72 which it usually runs around 134/70 something. Now a days my blood volume is reaching that 50% more mark and blood flows easier which makes it nice. My life revolves around the little one in my belly. His needs, his movements, my nutrition, what needs to be done for his arrival and when the next Doc appointment is and what I need to do for it. Toni and I spend a lot of time talking about him and are constantly planning and preparing for the arrival. I look forward to the day when the hormones leave lol but I think a small part of me will miss not feeling him in there when he comes into this world. I look forward to checking him over. Comparing his little nose and eyes and fingers to my families and watching him grow into something we created in complete love. They say Mothers bond and get to know there baby when they start to feel them move. I have bonded with him long before the pee stick said yes. I am not one to pray but I do now and I did then. Luca= bringer of light and that’s exactly what he has done in every sense. 16 more weeks to go folks!
Tina and Luca
5/6/2008
So the nursery is done. I can’t tell you how relieved I feel about that one. I just ordered 24 more ducks (lol farmer and redneck ducks) to go in the room for less then 10 bucks Y'all! hehehehehe Anyhow... I think Toni and I did a really nice job with it and its exactly what I had in mind. Now all we need is a baby who is still cooking. I got up earlier to pee and had round ligament pain so damned bad I could have fell over lol. I thought if this is what labor pain feels like I am innnnn trouble. Anywhoo... Nothing to report that wasn’t going on last week. Here is the update for this weeks baby process...
5/10/2008
So today was our hospital tour at GBMC. :-) We learned a lot and got to see all the important areas of the hospital. Labor and delivery rooms were a nice sized, homey, with hardwood floors, flat screen tv's, breast pumps and a baby station. The C-section prep rooms were nice as well as the post partum rooms. At the end of the tour we visited the nursery where we seen 2 5 lbders that were born recently. They were so cute and SOOOO small. My thought is Luca will be MUCH larger but only time and the 36 week ultrasound will tell. Toni and I have scheduled our 30 week 3D ultrasound and will have measurements done then as well. New detailed pics will be posted of him at that time. I am excited. I felt a little silly being there 26 weeks into the pregnancy when the other mothers on tour were only a month or so away from that time for them. I have my next doc appointment on the 19th then after that I start going every 2 weeks. Luca has been very active in the evening bee-popping (as I call it) around all over the place. I dont really know how I manage to sleep through it and I feel bad for Toni sometimes cause she feels it when she is trying to sleep against her bottom. This morning as I got back in bed from taking a pee break I said "prepare to get kicked in the butt" lol cause I knew he was revin up. Happy Mother's Day to you all! Have a good weekend. Tina
5/16/2008
So I was counting my pregnant time and its really coming to an end. Soon I will be back to sleeping on my stomach, listing whatever I want, taking a tylenol when I need it, breaking out my Yoga video and enjoying life as a Mother of a beautiful baby to which I already love more than words can possibly express. I counted it down folks its 6 more paychecks, 6 more weekends off and 13 weeks. Last night I had a dream about August 11th. So the mini me might be born then. They say a Mother's dream are prophetic is some ways. I am ready for him to be here. (when he is through cooking that is) I have my Doc appointment on Monday morning along with my glucose test. Toni and I have a full weekend of taking Miss J to the zoo, going to sex toy bingo and relaxing. I am ready for the week to be over with! Last night. Intimacy I wanted to note here is a wonderful thing when your pregnant. When your snuggling your partner and you both are feeling your son move that can be one of those times that is cherished forever. I certainly will. Grant it we all still get hot and heavy (hell even preggo women have needs) but the little things mean so much. Anyhow... I am writing a letter for Luca to frame and hang on the nursery wall. I want him to know how much I love him and for that love to be displayed. Anyway... Y'all have a great weekend!!!! I am gonna go sit in the tub and listen to my audiobook. Tina
5/19/2008
Doc said I was measuring 30 centimeters and we will be doin an ultrasound at 32 weeks to get his size just to make sure he isnt growing to large. LOL I drank the nasty shit for the gestational diabetes test and it gave me the serious gitters so I have a couple days to wait on that one. Heartbeat was good along with the little kicks in between beats from Luca letting the nurse know he wasnt pleased with something touching my belly. I am supposed to start counting. 10 kicks in 12 hours which I know I can get out of him any one time I sit in a comfortable chair or lie down. He is a pretty active baby. Good news is I only gained 1 1b in the last 4 weeks so that’s good. :-) So folks everything is fine. He is growing like a weed and I am healthy. Have a good week!
6/1/2008
So this week came with a few surprises. As those of your who have been following my blog know I have suffered round ligament pain since the very beginning of pregnancy. Friday a whole different kind of pain hit me. I knew I didn’t have to fear labor cause it was centered in my hips and legs as well as my arms. Reading my books it says that a woman’s pelvis softens in the third trimester and can get a little painful. Well I am hear to tell you that I have a HIGH pain tolerance and that hurt like shit. I was in tears my legs hurt so bad and I had to break down and take Tylenol which I have not done since I was ill with a fever. I laid in bed the hole night unable to sleep because of it. On the side of smiles however Luca did get the hiccups yesterday. Toni and I listened to the thumps in the womb from my stethoscope after he started. Based on wear they were I would say he is in positioned now and head down. Next Sunday I will be posting the clear face shots of his 3D ultrasound. We will all get to see him before he even gets here. I am so excited. Have a nice weekend folks.
6/8/2008
Toni, me, her mom and my mom all went to see baby Luca in action. We learned that he was around 3.5 lbs and has taken all the food I eat and applied it to his cheeks. :-) The ultrasound was exciting and we got to see his hands and piggies. Leave it to my son to be holding his penis when she looked to see that indeed he is still a boy. He was TOO cute in action and very cooperative even doing some yoga moves for the camera lifting his knees and feet and putting them by his face. All is well in the womb folks! Enjoy the pics!! Some of the later pics BTW were his nose a little squished do to the closeness of the probe. She wanted to make sure they were as clear as possible giving the equivalent of a nose against glass look.
6/16/2008
So it has been an interesting weekend. Saturday Toni and I went to "the Avenue" to try it out with her family for Father's day. I don't recommend it. The food wasn't good at all and who the hell cooks liver and onions with no gravy. *Sigh* Afterwards we came home and I started a new Bentley Little book that is sure to give everyone the creeps. The last book gave me nightmares. I dont know what it is about this pregnancy usually I love HORROR movies as well but for some reason I have no desire to watch them instead I am reading books about men and women fucking environmental demons in order to create these half demons that go crazy and kill there families. If you like a good lusty scare folks this one will make you wanta go "Ewwwwww" but "Damn this guy is a good writer". The new one has to do with Witches and hell lol its called "Dominion". Sunday we surprised Tammy at her baby shower. And I was to learn that a co-worker is her Aunt in law. We had a great time. Afterwards we headed to Mom's to see the Pud (Jada) and spend a little time with her. Luca has been HIGHLY active all weekend long and we were speculating on what appendages were coming out earlier today. Today was a lay around do absolutely nothing pregnant day where that is exactly what I did. Nothing.. lol Nap, eat, watch tv, nap some more... :-) When we are going to see the priest about a christening for Luca and then Thurs is appointment to discuss changes in the birth plan and the next ultrasound. It will be then we see what and how much more Luca is measuring. I know for sure that my belly has stretched and I predict he will stay up with his 3 cm change. The last time I was there I wasn’t nearly as big as I am now. I look pregnant and it pretty impossible to hide. 9 more weeks to go folks! Here is the baby center update for the week....
6/19/2008
So today was the day we went over the birth plan and talked about getting that growth ultrasound. Luca's heartbeat was 138 which was good considering he was sleeping and I am pretty sure facing my back. As the pregnancy gets closer to its end it is easier to start worrying about everything. I love him so much I can’t fathom anything happening to him it would kill me and I am constantly aware of everything going on. Yesterday he exceeded his kick quota but I still worried cause he wasn’t as active as normal it was one of his slow days and it doesn’t help that I slept most the day away and wouldn’t know one way or another. She says I am still boring and that I have nothing to worry about but I don’t think any Mother could be so carefree this close to the end. I go back in 2 weeks for the 33 week appointment and then back again for the 35 week appointment and the growth ultrasound. So all is well... we get closer to the end and closer to the day he comes into the world. *Sigh* 9 more weeks to go.
6/30/2008
This weekend was what I needed folks. My body is getting so tired and so uncomfortable that its nearly impossible not to stress. Needless to say we had a great time. See pics for the adventures. I have an appointment with her this Thursday and another 2 day stretch thanks to July 4th holiday. Only a 3 day work week WOOHOOOOOOO! :-) Here's the update for the week!
7/2/2008
So I was admitted to the hospital last night because I had a heart rate that went upwards to 135 along with several pauses in the beat in the 24 hours period I was there. I am fine. Luca is great nothing is wrong with him at all in fact his heart rate was great and his activity is excellent I was the one with the issues. Its called Pregnancy Related Tachycardia (sp?). Which means the pregnancy has cause me to have a serious heart rate issue. They had me hook up to a heart monitor on the cardiac floor all night last night as well as an IV drip of fluids in case I didn’t drink enough. *sigh* I hate hospitals!!!!! I learned that the little spells I have been having over the course of the pregnancy were due to this issue and like a putz never thought to check my pulse when they were happening until the other night. She told me to take the rest of the week I am going back to work on Sat. night. I have an appointment with her tomorrow for a reg OB checkup and will post more when that’s done. Later folks.
7/7/2008
I am still having small bouts of this tachycardia thing but I am doin ok. With a little over 6 weeks left I am preparing for anything. I have talked to my job and my hours have been cut from 40 a week to 32 allowing me a little xtra R&R. The baby is growing like a weed. He has lost a lot of room in there do to the fact that he is getting so big so his movements are more knuckle scraping the placenta feeling. Less jabs more rolls it seems lol. I cant imagine what it is like to be in that little tiny space with no room to really move or float like he was able to before. The Doc said she wants me to follow up with her cardiologist at GBMC to whom I will be making an appointment with tomorrow. His heartbeat is fine in the 130's to 140 something. No braxton hicks yet (I am hoping I will recognize it if it happens) and more trips to the pot. Luca is still sitting high so all is well. The 19th we have our growth ultrasound and I am excited to learn how big he really is. Have a good week. Tina
7/14/2008
So the last heart monitor quoted my heart rate somewhere at times around 160. I will be hearing from the cardiologist today about all that. My 32 hour work week has started and I am beginning to feel a little bit better. The extra time off allows me to take frequent naps and sit on my ass with my feet up which is something I believe all pregnant women should do as much as possible in the third trimester. My belly is getting bigger and bigger everyday! Luca is packing it on and its getting harder and harder to eat a normal meal without being so uncomfortable I wanta puke. I am counting down the days. We have our growth ultrasound on Friday to see just how much he is weighing in at and hopefully we will find out which method and how soon he will be getting here as well. *Sigh* Pregnancy is a hard job folks. I know I have said it a million times but I applaud all you women who had the balls to do it more then once. HE IS ALMOST HERE! WOOOHOOO!
7/18/2008
So today we learned that suspicions are right. I have what they call a "macro" baby. Luca is only as supposed to as I mention weigh in at 6 lbs. He is a lb and 3 ozs over that. (7.3) Due to all this I am gonna have to go twice a week. Tuesdays for a non stress test and an ultrasound to measure amniotic fluid level. Then Friday for a regular appointment. This is just a precaution to monitor his growth and progress. His heart rate was in the 150's all looked good on the ultrasound. He wouldn’t be cooperative for pics since he is facing my back so the ones we got were of feet and the side of his face. He was sleeping after partying most the night last night while I was at work. We did see him practicing his breathing which was cool as well. He hasn't dropped and I am not at all dilated so the Doc says unless I go into labor sometime between now and the 12th of August we are having a baby sometimes between the 13th and the 20th either by C-section if he gets to large or by induction. I will keep you posted on that one as the time goes by. I will post the pics then I need to get some sleep. I am exhausted!
7/22/2008
There will be an update to this post if the Doc sees anything on my Non Stress test today. Toni and I have an appointment at GBMC at 11 to lake sure the little guy is all right. He is very active as I mentioned (though currently sleeping :-) and doing well. There is a place on my side where you can see the rhythmic up and downs as he practice breathing in his little home at certain times of the day. We continue to progress and anxiously look forward to the 13th. :-) UPDATE: Luca passed his first NST (non stress test) though the nurse called him bad. LOL He kept pushing on the contraction monitor moving out of reach of the heart beat monitor. She had to come in and readjust it. Turns out unbeknownst to me that I will be spending a couple hours at the hospital at Friday cause I have the non stress test, the amniotic fluid check and my exam all then and just a NST on Tuesdays. *Sigh* All is well. Toni and I got a laugh out of it as we watched him move around the monitors. His heart rate did the accelerations (135-160) it should on his movements which she only needed to see 2 in 20 minutes he gave her more then her moneys worth. That our boy! :-)
7/25/2008
Luca had lots of fun today beating on the monitors for the stress test and driving yet another nurse batty. LOL The ultrasound lady pissed him off when she went to take pics and had to wake him up. He looks like a mini Buddha at this point. (see pics in the albums) We have elected to have a primary c section due to his size. I am measuring 39 weeks. She didn’t check me this week and says she will do it next week amongst the testing. Those of you who chose to be on the call list will get a call on the day of the C-section with a time that it is ok to come. Anyone who hasn’t been put on there only need call us or email us saying they would like to come to the hospital and we will put you on the list. Don’t worry were a couple weeks away yet assuming I don’t go into labor on my own. Leave some love on the pics. I gotta get home and get some shut eye!
Night LOL
Tina
7/29/2008
So Toni and I were awarded with some nervousness today. Luca was apparently feeling lazy (I say when your that big with that little space it isn’t unusual to find a comfortable place and lay there). He moved but the monitor didn’t catch it (except one good time) so we headed upstairs for a biophysical profile. The BPP is a ultrasound that sees him move, breath and measures his fluids. He passed with flying colors and rewarded the ultrasound tech with more grumpy faces to which she went around the office showing everyone. LMAO Next time were taking some sweets in with us for the NST so we don’t have to go through all that again. He is a evening mover and a day sleeper. Everything is fine. His heart rate is normal (143) and he's still growing. The lady in Doc Hunter's office said she could see him easily being 9 lbs and some change. :-) Friday is another NST, AFI and exam. Who knows he may be coming sooner then the 13th I will keep you posted. Luca is seriously loosing space.
7/31/2008
So I thought I had it rough before (HAH! That wasn’t nothing). Folks I have a very high pain tolerance. I can't tell you how many times I got my ass kicked by those horses only to get up and laugh about it or how many times I did some serious damage only to forget what I had done. Well now I got a large baby sitting on my cervix and man something has to be happening. Its been decided that my best bet it to take it easy until the big day. While he is considered full term I dont want him to come out until I am positively sure he is 100%. I started nesting yesterday cleaning anything I could get my hands on and today I have scrubbed the upstairs bathroom from end to the next. What can I say bleach is the clean smell. I only had 6 days left of work so I am gonna use this time off to finish whatever last minute prep stuff there is to do. (Hell I even took out a pork roast for dinner tonight to through in the crock pot). Whenever I go a little nuts like this I know my Grandmother still lives in me. My belly is huge at this point (although people still keep telling me that I carry it well do to my height) I wish I felt like I was carrying it a little better. I prolly tossed and turned last night from one hip to the next about 100 times. Poor Toni lol she turns with me whenever I move so its so wonder she gets any sleep at all. Anyhow... I am gonna sit down a bit and resume my list. I have one more thing to post and then we will be good. Those of you out of staters or people who don’t live close by will be able to read the blogs of Luca's birth when it happens as well as see pics right here on myspace. When Toni gets home tonight I will have her take pics of the 37 week belly for guesses on weight. Later gators.
8/1/2008
There has been "bloody show". I am taking it easy now. No contractions yet other then braxton hicks earlier. I don’t know if the show was from the exam since it happened hours later and there was nothing before that. So who knows. Baby could be getting close but still we wait. I will update as we move along.
8/3/2008
So there were some rather large globs of pink (not red) mucus in the toilet this morning. The plug is working its way out. I have had repeat wipes with pinkish discharge that I am gonna assume is the mucus plug still coming. At this point I am wishing I hadn’t let Dr. Hunter check me the other day cause that would mean I wouldn’t be spending my weekend stressing about things coming out of my bug. *sigh* Anyhow.. No contractions. Luca is still very active and things are going well. I have NO energy whatsoever at this point. I feel like its all drifted away someplace else. I have been napping several hours a day and still no energy. Being pregnant is worse then going hypo for my thyroid RAI. I feel like a slug... LOL Have a great weekend folks its back to the couch for me.
8/5/2008
So Luca decided since he was overactive yesterday LOL that he needed a long rest this morning. The more we bugged him the more he said to hell with us and found some other position with which to be comfortable. His heartbeat baseline was 143 so we headed upstairs for another biophysical profile. He passed again with flying colors and I got props for drinking as much as I do cause his amniotic fluid level is still realllllyyyyy good for a baby his size. The Ultrasound Tech snuck a measurement in for me and Luca is knowing about 9lbs. By the time he is born he will be 9 lbs and some change no problem. I am seriously tired today. I feel like I am carrying triplets and my stomach is HUGE! The circum. of his head is 14 inches and let me tell you I am feeling every bit of that in the groin area. This woman was on baby story yesterday saying "Oh I am gonna say this one is between 6 and 8 lbs" then they pulled out a 5 lb baby and I proceeded to tell the woman that she was full of shit. 5 lbs my ass. One of the girls at work told me that she never knew how many people were against c sections and believe that a baby should come out naturally. This is what I say to you people. When there is a chance that the baby could be injured, aggressively removed, stuck or there is not possible way that its fitting out your hooch there is nothing wrong with a nice peaceful delivery. I was sitting through a cpr class the other day and one of the girls mentioned that her mother was able to deliver an 11lb baby naturally I proceeded to ask her what number that child was. When she told me 4 I said well her shit had worked its way to that point my shit has not. LOL Point made. Anyhow... Luca is doing well just loosing room. Hopefully Ill go into labor before the next appointment. Keep your fingers crossed.
8/8/2008
So today was the last appointment. We went for our NST Luca moved like crazy only again the lady didn’t have the monitor on correctly and so we ended up sitting there for 20 minutes while he bounced around until she came back and fixed it in which he was ready for a little nap. Half through the last half hour we were in there he woke up again and did his little bouncing thing 3 good times for the monitor and we were considered reactive. His heartbeat was in the 120's while he slept after she fixed it and that worried me a little so I brought that up with Doc Hunter she said he was asleep and he’s a boy there hear trate it just lower. The longer he is the more I worry about him. No contractions on the monitor so we headed upstairs. We went into ultrasound next and watch him (who is now completely facing my back which is good) grab hold of his piggies and playing with his toes. (See pictures) Everything was measured and again he passed another biophysical with flying colors. From there we went into the exam and Doc hunter joked around telling me I was overdue by 2 cm's. Ha ha! We went into her office and she told us about the procedure for the C-section. I will go in at 8:15 be hooked up to the monitor, shaved, have blood drawn, have a catheter inserted and then at 10:15 be wheeled into the c section delivery room/ OR have the spinal inserted and then be laid back for the procedure. 10 minutes after that Luca will be here. Its a waiting game. I spent the night moaning every time I moved cause it feels like laying there with a broken tailbone. I am swelling in places to and was told to go home and relax so that’s what the plan is. Also if I do go into labor over the weekend or before Wends all I have to do is go in and tell them I am a scheduled c section. Watch out world cause in this phase a pregnant woman has a license to go nuts. I have already told one guy to put his eyes back in his fucking head and nearly cussed out an old man in the wa wa. :-) It wouldn’t take much for some perky nurse to come in and piss me off... Have a great weekend.
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